The saying goes that if you fall down, you try, get up and go on.
And I'd like to think of myself as a fighter, haha however
"perasaan" or inaccurate my judgment of myself is
Yet sometimes when the flurry of activity ends or especially in the early morning hours of getting up; when the defenses are down...
it hits me that....
somethings will never be
no matter how independent I want to be, I am not
and while I try and see that the glass is half full, it also means that it is half empty in the 1st place and I have to convince myself to ignore that
that I am trying but sometimes it's just not really enough.....
that even though I am fairly content with everything right now, there is still a little part of me that hopes for a better tomorrow.....