Another 7 nights down

The evil light that draws me at night....

...and I normally do not eat anything but dark chocolate!

Thankful to God for helping me through another 7 nights-to also have patience and humility.

Am getting crappy at my cannulas though

Peace beyond understanding

Current thoughts:
1) How am I going to cope if I really can't drive for 3 months!?!
How am I going to go to work at night-how much time am I going to waste to walk home 30 min everyday. How am I going to go to a busy cardio rotation 45-1 hour away via public transport back in Sydney (when I could have driven for 15 min and arrived!). And I will miss the opportunity to bring my parents to visit and drive around... :(
2) Finding a house to move is such a headache...given I can't drive...I need to be near public transport, but we need at least 2 car spaces-when I can start to drive back. And rent is expensive now!
3) I still long to serve in a more meaningful way at church
4) Am I even ready to study for the exam next year-so unsettled with moving/car/etc etc
5) How am I even going to appeal/go to court/take time to go to RTA in the midst of working and having no car!

HOWEVER,

My Father will take care of me.
And even at the worst case senario-He always pulls through
and even "taking my car privillages" is a gentle nudge to depend on Him more-it is the most gentle way of increasing my reliance on Him....
and it is an opportunity to learn to accept help from others (I find it so hard to ask)
and to really be thankful for my poor housemate who has coped the flak of having to drive me around so much!
and if I don't learn to be flexible now-how can I be flexible next time?
I leave the FRACP to God...way to "chim" for me...

So Lord, peace beyond understanding!