New flat, new place

There's something worst than being a IMU student joining the current students in the middle......
.......it's being a 1st batch IMU student!

"Oh so you are doing med...in 1st year? No? In 4th year? Are you sure?"
"Huh? You're transferring into 4th year? Can you do that?" (with disbelieving looks)
"Has UNSW accepted you?"
"I've never heard that that's possible!"

Nobody knows about IMU, and think that we're random ppl suddenly applying to join UNSW. *_*

but nvm, it's all good. After all the drama of being in a life or death situation, I guess one good thing I've learnt is to not complain so much about anything else.


Anyway the big agenda now is to find a church...please pray that I can find a suitable church! Been to 3 churches now, & I feel that churches here are at either extremes...nothing wrong with that, but am looking for something in between.

There's something special about to be delivered to my flat! ;)

And am going for a really crazy "I will never do it if it was not for someone" trip!

Just a few random pics.

From left:
1) Alan's 21st
2) CNY Reunion food
3) All the girl cousins
4) Fusion CNY Dinner; 1 glass is enough, thank you..haha, not a bubbly fan
5) Relatives
6) Again
7) Dim Sum with grandparents
8) "O" (Orientation week) It's like a big carnival here! Lots of free stuff & music & games
9) Jason at uni. Meeting up with IMU students all the way here


Oops that's all for now. Am fighting the temptation to leech off ppl's wireless!
Won't get internet till a few weeks time!

So...

Just got news on where I'd be posted for a whole year...St Vincent's which is a 10 min bus ride away. It's right in the city near the "gay and funky" area where the Mardi Gras is held (that's what they tell me). Apparently quite a strict hospital.

not really what I had in mind, as I wanted Prince of Wales because it's on campus so that I could attend campus bible study. And I'd be there with just 1 other IMU person. Whereas at POW there would be 3 of us.
but I guess it's ok. :) Just hoping that my 2 lecture days would fall on the days where campus meetings take place.

One thing I miss

Apart from the usual settling down experience, which is quite mild for me (all thanks to God for placing me in UNSW with lots of relatives) there's something I'm starting to miss....
...which is talking with the Malaysian slang.


the slang here has a low tone (in my option at least) as oppose to the more straightforward (prob due to the bahasa baku influenced) "say it as it is spelled" Malaysian english pronounciation.

And causes a dilema; to talk the normal Malaysian way....and sometimes get asked to repeat because they can't get what I'm saying, or to modify (nicer word for fake..haha) an Oz accent.

Sure miss the lahs & crazy unselfconscious chats.

Horrendous into Nice

So, right on the night towards leaving, my mum had a fever of 40C.
Even as I waited for the car to pick me up at 3.30am in the morning, I was half hoping that the car will come late...so I'd have an excuse to cancel my flight.



But now, I'm finally here.
And..it feels really good to start anew in such a beautiful place. :)
The weather's just nice.

Oh yes, what's a post without some humour heh?
I arrived at around 6+ and as my aunt was driving past some shops...I was really surprised to see so many abandoned shops...all dark and boarded up...was thinking to myseld; since when did Sydney become so run down?..


silly me forgot that ALL shops close at 5.

Yea, welcome to Oz.

The monster within

It's just 1 night away from leaving and yet, I still manage to mess things up.
Funny how when I think I can do this; that I can survive alone, "trust" God about my mum, forge ahead in totally unknown territory, and when I feel that I am finally ready to stand tall again.....it all crumbles with a minor disruption.

I used to think I was quite brave..haha, eating spiders. Simply going down to Chow Kit. Unafraid to take the most "painful" choices. Dare to try and convince people to be real, to not have synthetic smiles. (I must be choking on my own words now!)

But that was just baby stuff.
This is the real deal......

Somehow the person I thought I was or rather wished I was is just a fragment of my imagination. How the real test of things have exposed the monster within.
A temper I never knew I had, a mask I thought I never needed to put on. How skepticism now creeps in certain areas. Exposed & confronted with the reality that I actually can't cope well under very stressful circumstances.

A shadow of who I thought I was.


But this is not the person I want to remain as.

So even as I type this, totally embarrassed at my own failings...I still want to write about this because the greater the failure, the greater the grace.
And while I might not be able to be as strong as I would like to be, I can still be to be honest & real so that's a choice I'd like to keep. ;)




what a weird farewell post.
^_^


haha.


c yea!

The time has come

for..

cue suspense music...


Yea yea yea, it's time to *ahem* like what Soon Guan says, camwhore!


Since I think I'd be internetless for 3 weeks soon...I must post these pictures of my really awesome CG. ;)

One with the guys

And the "lame" juniors. Proof of lameness can be found at Crz & Troy's blogs.

Eg:

what disease makes u laugh??
ans : Hep P (copyright, Crz 2007)

yes, it's cool to be lame in IMU.

Yea Soon Guan, just like what the lady said "You'd regret your cheesy post 2 years later."

Ah, the girls!

It's true that I didn't get to know a lot of you better.
Would have loved to hear MORE crapping by M1/06s. Haha

But seriously, to have deeper heart to heart conversations. To help each other through various life turmoils. Have been too overwhelmed by my own and for this, I apologize!

Thanks guys, for bringing variety in my otherwise boring med school life. Haha.
The engineers, the pharmacists, the computer IT specialists, bio specialists, the business tycoons, the mass com cum law trained, the lame doctors.. C yea soon.

The trip that wasn't

it promised to be a trip with lots of pictures, lots of good food (or so I've heard from the ever patriotic homebred), lots of great company (lame juniors & eating sprees). The last retreat I'd get to join & of all places; we are going...to Sitiawan




it's not that I'm really desperate to go there or anything.
but how ironic/frustrating it is when 1 hour before I'm to leave....yet again, I can't go because of complications.


just 2 days of escapism..from the crushing burden and pain. Yea, sounds so dramatic, "crushing burden and pain" yet it's true. So many complications & extra hospital visits I don't even bother to tell anyone about anymore. Too many to mention. Too painful to recall.




reading & talking to other ppl makes me wish, if only trying to keep the weight limit of 30kgs were the biggest problem that kept me awake, or if exams were the worst thing that could ever happen to my life. How I wish I could rant about uni schedules or the weather. Because I would gladly trade places for their worst problems.
(of course, I know there are others with even worst problems than mine and would probably be rolling their eyes at what I'm writing now)






Life is painful.



The more you win in love, the more you stand to lose.