It's times like this..

...when the 75 year old man you're clerking while trying to understand what he's saying in his thick Polish accent, all of a sudden pauses mid sentence and chokes up..and cries, and cries....




grace.

Whoosh

I don't know if it's this particular rotation or it'll be the same for the rest of the year but things are really busy! Especially in Vinnies (yea, the aussies love to give nick names).

On average, I leave home at 715 and come back at 630! And still find that I don't have enough time to clerk patients or schedule other tasks we need to do. Lina and I were contemplating of coming back on Sat just to fit in some things. Things are a bit more laid back at Prince of Wales hospital though, I often leave before my housemate even wakes up and come back to find my housemate playing his games online...

But Oncology rotation has really been good. I've learnt a lot more, especially human-wise (does such a word exist?! haha). And be challenged to verbalize Jesus.

Even though I often say that I want to be a doctor who uses her occupation as a means to share the gospel, I'm often too cowardly or too polite to really talk about Jesus; so I end up being very courteous and try to be caring....which is not wrong but at the end of the day, the patient just thinks I'm a nice medical student..and that's about all.

Yet because of how my family has been affected and all, I am little bit bolder now.
Because I think there's nothing to lose

I won't say I'm that great in sharing about God..haha..still very awkward and stiff. And sometimes too busy to really talk to the patients about how they are feeling.

My patient was discharged yesterday for palliative care at home. He has been really helpful to me to allow me to ask him endless questions and examine him even though he's terminally ill. Wanted to see him just before he got discharged and pray for him..but he was already discharged by the time I got there. Too bad I thought; walked down to go home.....and low and behold, he and his wife were at the reception area walking to go to their car!


Anyway, all I did was to pray for his wife. In the parking lot. Don't even know what to pray for without sounding insensitive. Don't know what diff it makes. But it's a big improvement for a coward like me. ;)

Look at my chilli plant! Won't need to buy chillis if this succeeds. I hope it doesn't die on me though...always forget to water it when I get home late.

Ah..yes..

Finally get to put some pics!

Walking the Harbour Bridge on the 75th Anniversary of the coat hanger (yea, that's what they call it here)

Weekend away with unichurch at Gerringong..Awesome beach. Quite cool bible study: we did a study on Leviticus. Yea, I know...Leviticus?!? But really learnt lots about the significance of all the mold, lambs and unclean this & that...I guess not a book that should be brushed off after all.

My favourite pic of the bridge

Melbourne!

We were doing an amazing race round the city...that accounts for the funny dress up which was part of the task in 1 of the pics. Really good idea by the Focus church; we had pit stops at the landmarks in Sydney & at 1 point had to sing Amazing grace while walking down Darling Harbour.

oh great

i'm sitting in the computer room now in Uni and trying hard to stop my eyes from running...
really embarrasing actually..


sigh i just don't know why must I be still stuck with the same old same old.
even when i've totally given up already..



better leave now before it starts flooding

Give me my internet

3 weeks ago we had to wait for internet to be connected.

Then the internet got connected but my computer decided to die on me.
And even after 2 visits by the techicians & endless phone calls and 2 weeks of waiting, my com is still not fixed.

Which would be ok, because no one dies of internet deprivation...except that UNSW has this really high tech system where all the lecture notes, class timetables, case tutorial readups and more importantly clinical school teaching sessions (which may change everyday) are all online...



anyway, guess what block I'm starting on; of all the things to start with..!
Agings and endings (which is the term they use here for pallitative, cancer and aged care)

somehow....my face gets a little hot when breast Ca is mentioned in lectures. And wow great, Ca breast is the among the most common and thus most oft mentioned ca.

There's no escaping it I guess.

but it's still good. still good. by grace.

Busted

Cuz it was such a short trip after all, I didn't bother telling anyone that I won't be home..
plus everyone so far has been assuming that I live with a girl


..so on monday my grandmother came to my flat to find 1 guy there.
on a weekday no less!

must be thinking I cut class a lot. (I really did have 2 days off! haha)

I hope she won't pop by this weekend cuz I'm going away again..

Maybe

..I deserve better.

Weird

Just a glimpse of how different medicine in UNSW is run......






...........I DON'T have written exams ANYMORE. Zero SAQs, MCQs, essays. (not a single paper all the way up to graduation!). IMU Sem5 is now officially my last written exam till I get called a doctor.


emm..I don't know if that's good or bad, cuz everything will be tested in VIVAs & OSCEs!!

haha, better get used to working under pressure I guess.