Emmmm

In my desperation to just clear my head-wrote the previous post.
And was drawn to a couple of verses I posted earlier-just such a good reminder

Maybe I should start blogging again-just for myself since no one reads anymore. But to write and declare God's truth despite my unbelief.

Really encouraged by this blog! http://journals.worldnomads.com/me/

I can't but You can

Mark 10: 23 Jesus looked around and said to his disciples, “How hard it is for the rich to enter the Kingdom of God!”24 This amazed them. But Jesus said again, “Dear children, it is very hard* to enter the Kingdom of God.25 In fact, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the Kingdom of God!”

26 The disciples were astounded. “Then who in the world can be saved?” they asked.

27 Jesus looked at them intently and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But not with God. Everything is possible with God.”

Been personally overwhelmed by a few things.

Feeling really dumb at work and inadequate: especially difficult as being someone in charge I do need to gain the respect of the bosses; so that they trust my message over the phone.

Been feeling quite inadequate in my Christian walk as well: If I am taking this up with the view of doing more for God and thus not being able to be as active in the church scene-yet why am I not able to show more love/patience at work. Do I sit an extra 5 minutes just to chat with patients; esp those who are dying? Do I just do the formalities of pall care referrals and wash my hands off

Plus am I truly being pure in my friendships. Do I have ulterior motives in conversations/relationships? Why do I complain so much? Is there a balance between expressions of frustrations and down right gossip? Why am I not rested in my current state?

Ah-and it draws me back again. That indeed-it is IMPOSSIBLE humanly speaking.

SO Lord, help me Lord!